I AM!!

So here i go for the umpteenth time,
hoping to strike the perfect rhyme,
not really sure what theme to grind,
too many strings wired in mind!

Making progress on the professional front,
now making logical decisions, no freaky stunts,
but yet it seems all normal and plain,
no sense of achievement, no sense of gain!

Still falling back on the occurances of the past,
it's like I'm under influence of a spell that's been cast,
I did rhyme before that i broke free,
I guess i was lying, to you and to me!!

Happy thoughts!! Count blessings!! Happy thoughts!!
Yes, done, counted so many that now they've begun to rot!
Yes I was on the verge of becoming cynical,
Those two pushed me off the ledge, no more miracles!

But here I stand, i stand alone because i dare to,
I don't aim to earn too much fame or abundant fortune,
of the many goals and things i chose to aspire,
Is to make him repent, fry his brain, make him perspire!

Vengeful? Spiteful? Well i may be,
I didn't exactly choose this, don't you see?!
I don't blame fate either, that is for cowards!
I chose my path, no relativity, I AM moving forwards!!