BLOOD IN THE WATER.....

Time and again I've tried hard to restart,
I make a plan, but it never gets off the chart,
But now is the final cut,it's do or it's slaughter,
Can't afford to fail now, there is blood in the water.

Things are spiraling completely out of control,
Nothing is stable, 'certainty' itself is unsure,
The mind draws images that I never dreamed of visualising,
Well after days of hallucinations, nothing can be surprising!

I was going to take some time off, on a sabbatical,
No amount of time seems to be ample,
While I was here, in my cocoon, taking a long break,
Life didn't just moved on, it began to overtake.

Everything has been torn apart, all lies in disarray,
Shattered dreams, no more smiles, no more 'above the fray'
Every move, every motive will now be under scrutiny,
I didn't see this coming,every second now is mutiny.

But I guess I needed to see through this bullet hole,
Pressure alone can bring out diamond from coal,
Now i grow up, i face the music and fight harder,
VULNERABILITY at it's peak, because now there is blood in the water!